i am the grinch

this is turning out to be the crappiest christmas ever. i fucking hate this arbitrary holiday and the fact that i am forced to participate in it. this fucking sucks.

sleepytime musings

I have developed a paranoia that my bed will collapse onto me while I sleep. However, I am too lazy/tired to do anything about it right now. It might be the turkey talking. But if the top bunk kills me in my sleep, for the record, I totally saw it coming. Damn ikea bed.

happy birthday Tom!

today is Tom Waits' 59th birthday! Happy birthday Tom, heres to hoping you still dont wanna grow up! thanks for the wonderful music!

tonight i'll be sipping some whiskey, listening to Toms 45s and remembering columbus.
hopefully i'll run into the Gin Soaked Boy.

TO: past me FROM: future me

do not be afraid. do not fear the influence of the actions of others on YOUR LIFE. do what you know is *right* and be *strong* because none of this can take your will if you don't allow it. think to the future. *don't behave like a fucking asshole*. if you are about to do something you think twice about, Ask yourself: "would a fucking asshole do that?" and if the answer is yes, DON'T DO IT. if you wouldn't do it in person, or on video, in front of your mother, DON'T DO IT. do not be afraid to Voice Your Opinion, it is the strongest weapon you have. SPEAK for yourself and do not let anyone or anything intimidate you into silence. but also know when to keep your mouth shut. question authority. question dogma. question motive. use critical thinking. study programming when you first want to, and don't let anyone talk you out of it. value the ones that love you for who you are and not what you can give. be firm and impassive. do not fear winter. Subaru's are not coming to get you. teach, but do not study to teach. do not take that "year off", it is the beginning of a "career off". do not live with someone you hardly know. do not shelter riffraff. learn binary. do not ignore your problems. do not go to that park with that boy. do not speak to the uniformed man. do not fear. do not compromise yourself for another. do not let yourself believe that anthers disregard makes you unworthy of respect. work hard, and you will appreciate what you have. work harder, and you might deserve it. don't work too hard for someone who profits off your labors, especially if they do not appreciate the fact that their income is thanks to you. do not look back with regret, only lessons learned.